HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!
I have to admit, last night was one of the best NYE. We kept it simple. No hosting parties, no hours in the kitchen, no over indulging on adult beverages, etc. It was just my husband and kids, a crockpot full of bean soup and corn bread, and a couple of good movies. Girls picked one, Guys picked the other. We had intermissions for snack refills, phone calls or texts with a few of our family and friends at midnight, a game of air hockey that I lost 1-9 to my teen son… The evening was perfect.
As time continues to speed up in life, the more I realize that I need to take every opportunity to breathe. To breathe in the laughter and the silly moments with my most precious gifts. To say lots of I love you(s), to show appreciation and recognition. To soak in every ounce of the joy, peace, and love that surrounds me. Last night was perfect, I was content.
Philippians 4:11-13, I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do all this through him who gives me strength.
As I reflect on 2019, I realize that I let some aspects of life get the best of me, especially in the last 6 months. I achieved some goals, but not all. At moments I felt like I was standing still, when I wanted to keep moving forward. At times, with my kids getting older, it feels like sand slipping through my fingers… desperately wanting time to slow down. Knowing with this new year, or the next new year, or the next next new year … it’s only a blink away that our family will move into yet another chapter as the kids graduate, and start to decide their paths as adults. It feels like only yesterday that I was looking at infants, then toddlers and wondering if I’d ever survive, but with each step, God provides the way, the strength, the courage to move forward. All I have to do is have faith.
Find joy in the journey
This holiday break I set a 21 day goal to move each day. Not tied to any program, but my own personal challenge. Drew it up on my white board, made fun little holiday doodles with each day I completed, with the intent to take forward steps that would allow me to reset my brain and remind myself of how blessed I am to be able to move, and to focus on taking back the time for self love and moving that I’d so freely gave up in the last 6 months.
The 14 days I’ve completed have been a gift… 7 more to go!!!
Over that past couple weeks, I’ve been able to catch a few yoga classes, some online, some in a studio, as well as a couple of long walks, a couple of Camp Gladiator workouts. I feel great! No holiday icky feelings at all. I still enjoyed all the treats and rich foods, but incorporating some form of moving in my daily routine really helped my body. During one of the yoga practices, the teacher kept reminding us of the choice we have to “begin again”. Reminding us of how every day we have the opportunity to “begin again”. We will make mistakes, we will make choices that don’t always serve us. But with each morning, each breath, each chance… we can “begin again”. The practice was amazing based on this single reminder alone. Even though on that particular day my body felt tired, heavy, and moving was harder than normal, with each start of a new sequence, I approached it as my chance to begin again. Hearing those words over and over in those 60 minutes was a gift. It reminded me that when it’s hard, with the next step, the next pose, the next meal… I can begin again. If you think about it, that single phrase “begin again” is liberating but it involves real effort by me. It requires forgiveness. It requires me to let go and allow myself to move forward.
For the past week or so I’ve been searching for my intent word for 2020. Something that would align to how I want to show up for my family, for myself in this new year. How I want to “begin again” in 2020. My intent word for 2020 is “pause”.
- Be present for my family by giving them my full attention, especially when my plate is full and my mind is scattered in a million different directions
- Stop to fuel my body when I need to
- Pause and move to continue to build strength
- Pause and breathe in the many moments that represent forward progress, at work or at home
- Be still and observe the trees blowing, the flowers blooming, the feeling of joy when the sun touches my skin
- Pause and authentically connect with people around me, to cultivate stronger relationships and encourage others
I desire to begin this year with specific goals that will allow me to slow time, and truly embrace the special moments I’m blessed to experience. And I know distractions will come in all forms. But, if I “pause”, then I can learn how to modify, adjust, and lean into the areas of my life that matter most and not worry about missing any of it 🙂
What’s your intent for 2020?
May God continue to bless you in this new year! xoxo, cheers